I am four days into this thing and while I have had a few weak moments (can we discuss how WONDERFUL Smartfood is??) I have also had a few strong ones, too. Monday I had a sensible breakfast (I HIGHLY recommend LunaBar chocolate peanut butter protein bar...it's divine.) and a Lean Cuisine based lunch with a fruit and veggie thrown in and a yogurt for good measure. Now I find yogurt to strictly be a necessary evil. There are other kinds I enjoy more than others, but really it's something I eat because I just feel I should. I generally try to choke it down while whatever hot food I am eating is microwaving, telling myself I am not allowed to eat said delicious food until that yogurt container is empty. I have literally stood by the microwave, shoveling Dannon Light & Fit into my mouth, nearly gagging on whatever fruity flavor they claim it to be (I tend to favor strawberry and orange ones...just an FYI). I always feel better when I scrape the plastic for the last bits of yogurt, but it is usually a struggle to get there.
But I digress...so breakfast and lunch Monday was a success. I didn't get a sausage and cheese breakfast sandwich at Dunkin Donuts as I previously had enjoyed frequently, nor had I tasted the joy that is a LalaJava muffin. (For those of you that have never been there, you are totally missing out.) Then dinner Monday was a mix. I had an orange (weird I know, but I didn't have enough veggies for the week for lunch and dinner so it had to be a fruit), ham steaks (not the worst choice, but there are far better ones) and macaroni and cheese, which I'm sure will prove to be one of my major nemesis in the battle. I <3 macaroni and cheese. It's an amazing combination of pasta (frequently in more fun shapes than the usual thin strands of spaghetti or tubes of ziti) and a wonderful, melty, ooey, gooey cheese sauce that is obviously incredibly unnatural and contains very little actual cheese substance, but addicting and satisfying nonetheless. It is an incredible weakness of mine and will surely prove to be an obstacle between me and my healthy self. The only upside of the mac and cheese?? I didn't eat the whole box (don't judge me) and it was the Velveeta made with 2% milk so it contains half the fat of regular. It's baby steps...right???
Tuesday, I had the same breakfast and lunch (substitute chocolate peanut butter Luna for cookie dough) and WW meal for Lean Cuisine. Dinner was at my parents' house that evening so that meant of course, that the meal was Italian. Pasta, to be exact, with meatballs and chicken. So I resisted the cheese ravioli and had spaghetti, but as I ate it I realized that there was more on my plate than there should have been. I had chicken tender with my pasta, but I think I was a little too liberal with the shaker cheese (or "sugar" as my darling youngest nephew calls it) and while in terms of cheese, fake parmesan is not adding a major amount of fat and calories, but maybe next time there needs to be a measuring procedure based more on actual measurements and not just on what I think looks like a reasonable amount. I figure my lack of ability to judge "reasonable" has gotten me to the situation I currently find myself in. But aside from dinner which might not have been my finest moment, I can honestly say it was after that I find my proudest moment of the week. Are you ready?? It's pretty impressive... I. Didn't. Eat. Dessert. Big deal, you say?? So what?? I retort with yes...it's a MAJOR deal. Not only am I a HUGE sweets fan (double meaning...get it??), but in my parents freezer was a creamy, delish ice cream cake that yours truly made on Sunday. Oreo cookie and hot fudge crust, chocolate and vanilla ice creams, and cool whip and sprinkle topping. It's not the most creative dessert but it gets the job done on may levels. I watched my husband and my sister-in-law eat some and my mouth watered. I feel my mouth watering as I write this. It was torture seeing them enjoy that thing, BUT I resisted. When I got home I made air popped popcorn with I Can't Believe It's Not Butter spray. For the record, not even a magician could make that stuff taste like the pleasure I had turned down. But I went to bed feeling better about myself than I had previously and I guess that in itself is a pretty impressive feat.
Wednesday is where I lost my footing. I had the same breakfast and lunch, but after school I was STARVING. I had not been snacking at all Monday or Tuesday but on Wednesday by like 3:30 I couldn't handle the rumblings any longer. Unfortunately, I wasn't home and was at the mercy of gas station snacks. I walked into the store with my bravest face on and blocked my nose so I couldn't smell the Subway bread that was baking in the corner, beckoning to me. It was almost like those old cartoons when that girl cat got doused in something gross and Pepe LePew was attracted at first scent. I scoured for a good 7 minutes (ask Laura, she was waiting in the car) and was torn. Should I go for some sort of bar loaded with sugar? Or the Smartfood, which is only 100 calories per single serving bag? I chose the Smartfood. Good choice? Not when I eat the whole double serving bag. Ugh...kicked myself for that decision as soon as I found my fingertips grazing the bottom of the bag. I swore I was only going to have a few kernels, but my willpower failed me. Later at dinner, it failed me to the tune of too much pizza and more chips than I needed, but I snubbed a packet of Fun Dip and had nothing after dinner so I at least didn't completely ruin myself.
Today...same breakfast and lunch. (I am a creature of habit and don't like change so my food choices are very narrow...I am hoping to change this but can't comepletely change right away...at least that is what I am telling myself.) I resisted stopping for a piece of pizza on my way to Southborough, which had not been out of the ordinary for me previously. I did have some delicious corn chips at home services, but they are sold in the healthy aisle and are sweet potato flavored so I REFUSE to consider this a failure. Dinner was smartly portioned AND smartly chosen so props to me there and I have some Jell-o sugar free, fat free (hopefully not flavor free) pudding firming up in the fridge.
So there is the summary of my week. I am really trying to psyche myself up for the weekend. With no set schedule and more free time, I tend to kill any chance with horribly bad food decisions. I have a wedding tomorrow night (going to try really hard to turn down the cake) and a coffee date Saturday (which also is sometimes a pastry date). I just have to be strong and realize that if I make one mistake, I shouldn't blow the whole day (which was totally my motus operandi before). Wish me luck as the weekend approaches and I will update Sunday or Monday to let you know how well (or poorly) I did.
PS- Thanks for all the great feedback about my first post!!
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